Heh; i'm more of a listener than a talker when it comes to group conversation.. never really one to hog the lime light.

Anyways.. today must have been the first time in ages that i've participated in the work lottery draw. I normally feel like i'm wasting my money even if it is a small amount, for an even smaller chance at winning the lottery. I was in a good mood though and my wallet, heavy in loose change, thought 2$ wasn't too bad. Apparently if we win, we'd all get 2.5 million dollars.

What would you do with that kind of money?

While at the break room at work today, my manager and coworker was talking about how one would pay off all her family's debt, quit her job, have her house cleaned and organized. What was interesting was by not having other responsibilities (money making ones), she would be able to enjoy other activities that were unpleasant b/c they were taking up her time such as the extracurricular activities of her children. My other coworker said how he'd never get married if he won and would get a huge house.. so that on Friday and Saturdays he'd have huge orgies... no word of a lie.

When I thought of it (winning 2.5$ million, not the orgies) 2 things came to mind: 1, i'd move out on my own. 2, i'd get my own studio.. preferably a nice loft. Now my idea of a loft is probably different that what it really is: 2 floors, very open concept. Main floor is the kitchen, dining area and studio, while there are stairs that go up to the bedroom area which occupies about half the length of the ground floor. Being open, you could look from the 2nd floor onto the main floor, where the studio is. Not being burdened by money, i'd purchase all the photography equipment I wanted and start my own business... taking photos of gorgeous... half naked women... lol.. they could be naked.. i guess.

Heh; classy, like that

I'm looking at the entry about the women and clothes.. and the picture keeps grabbing my attention.
Bewbs.
Yowza.. thats rather indecent.
Its like "don't look at anything else but me.. but i'm gonna get mad at you when you can't stop staring at my breasts"

It cheers me up when I look at some of the photos I took recently; it some recent photos made me feel like I was losing my touch (photography-wise).

I think what really was the case is that i'm new to product photography and I don't particularly like it.. or atleast the subject im taking photos of

Like I've said before in a previous entry, it is best to write when you've come up with an idea and not after the fact. For now my train of thought is 'cold' and I may not be able to write as passionately.

I wanted to talk about what I saw at church yesterday. I think i'm a rather progressive person, but I thought the apparel of some women were not in good taste. Now that I think about it, i've talked about this before, but these are normal church-goers, not some girl who never goes to church and thinks she's at the Playboy mansion instead.

mmm.. carssss

I saw women wearing:
- a shirt that does a big dip, revealing one shoulder (and thus quite a bit of her back and bra strap)
- another shirt that revealed half of each shoulder thus showing off her bra straps
- women who wore short shirts and low rise jeans, so even the slightest bend caused them to pull it down
- (the usual) low cut shirts

While I won't say that i'm a prude, I would say that such things at a church isn't exactly acceptable. While we shouldn't be ashamed of our bodies, we also shouldn't be showing off so much skin in such a place. We don't need to dress up in suits and dresses, but cover up a bit more. Obviously this sounds like I was leering at them, but more that I noticed and while I am attracted by the female form, physical beauty is only skin deep.

I guess women have a harder time in this respect b/c us guys can be total slobs and still be covered up in the appropriate places; all we have to do is 'really,' cover up below the equator, while women have both above and below, front and back. Comfort will mean loose fitting and low hanging for them as well.

I've always wanted to get a tattoo and now that i've seen this artists' drawings... wow.. I know what I want.

I'd prefer to get something similar to eagle, but with a 15degree angle more looking at the face.
I think i'd prefer a dragon fighting a knight.. maybe on my shoulderblades..

Just some randoms.. mostly related to the recent passing of my grandfather:

- no matter how much time I spent preparing myself emotionally and mentally for it, it didn't stop me from weeping for the loss of my grandfather when I saw him in his coffin at the wake, or lowering him into the plot of land

- I spent alot of time coping via talking about it with coworkers these days and before that, playing far more video games than I normally do

- there were 49 flower/bouquet sets at the wake room; crazy amount of flowers; basically took up the whole room

- my parents told many friends that it was a private function, but the wake was still packed, standing room only 

- it was only from 6-8 but people were talking and reminiscing alot and we stayed til 9:30 instead

- i cheated on my diet a bit at the wake by eating a 2bite browney and a mini cinnabun; it did make me feel better

- i've never seen my grandmother cry; and the whole time (wake and funeral) i've never seen her stop

- my younger cousin said something that resonated with me: "this will be the last time I ever see my grandfather after this"

- my aunt told me the story of how she was at the hospital with him and helping him get from the washroom and back into the bed, and because he was too weak, she sat at the edge and told him to fall back onto her so they can get onto the bed. As they fell back, he noticed how he dropped his head, eyes closed. She looked to the nurse and asked whether he passed and they wouldn't say, b/c he did. I sometimes don't know how I feel about that: b/c while it is horrible to have someone die in your arms, it is also the greatest honor that they felt comfortable enough to do that