September 30, 2012

• Doppleganger

  I’m getting annoyed.
  People keep thinking that my being nice to them, my compliments and by open-book personality is me hitting on them.
  Puh-leeze. Stop thinking so high an mighty of yourself.
  These kind of women are soo.. soo.. whats the word?
  Sensitive?

  Maybe I should just be the normal guy who:
  - doesn’t keep in touch with his friends (phone calls, texts, emails, fb, etc)
  - who bottles his emotions in
  - who is rather brash and insensitive
  - who has many secrets and doesn’t reveal any

  I’ve been brought up to, and molded myself (through reading and work) to find something to compliment people about; for little things can mean very much.

  I believe it is important to keep in touch with (what you think) are your friends frequently. If you don’t, you lose relationships. I barely keep in touch with my oldest friend b/c I (we)failed to keep in touch when things got busy. Thankfully we’re very tight and just pick up where we last were at, but you can’t do that with all relationships. 

  I don’t know what made me an open-book kind of person. Maybe i’m not afraid of expressing my opinions. People just aren’t used to this; guys that you can have a deep meaningful conversations with. I’ve met many guys who seem to be single-faceted; who has only one passion: sports or games.. I know when I listen to my polar opposite, Ghost, when he talks to women, they bite their lip and count ceiling tiles, just hoping he’d shutup with his low intelligence blather. 

  I don’t think ill ever change.. mm no, I will change; i’m constantly changing who I am. I just know that I don’t want such people around me; people who don’t have the balls to confront me and speak to me up straight. It really upsets me when I have to hear from it from a 3rd party. So they can expect a 180 in my attitude: don’t expect an contact, meaningful conversations, or honest opinions. Thats one thing I don’t think will change: I don’t forgive easily & cut people out of my life at the drop of a hat.

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