June 30, 2012

• Weakness

  For all my talk about not caring what other people think of you and only about yourself.. i sure don’t practice it.

  I blame media; they bombard me and my friends that drinking is for cool, mature people and thats how people have fun and celebrate.
  But then that taking the easy way out as we all have our own minds to use and make the conscious decision. 
  To be strong enough to not be easily swayed by others and peer pressure.

  I failed again, just like new years.
  Remember that entry?
  I was scrambling 10 minutes before midnight looking for some alcoholic drink to ‘celebrate’ when i found that incredibly silly.
  I grabbed some icecream drumsticks and clinked that with my girlfriend.

  So Canada Day weekend.. and I know every night there will be celebrations and hence drinking.
  First thing that comes into mind: lets buy some alcohol so i’m prepared.

  Maybe its not so bad.
  The kind of drinks that I buy, I like to drink b/c it actually tastes good and I like the buzz.
  And maybe thats ok.
  But maybe all the sugars in it makes me break out.. and i’d prefer not to.
  Or maybe I just want to stop drinking all together; just because.

  I wish I had the strength to stop and by like my friend L who never drinks.
  But how fun is it for your friends to always tease you about it and watch other people be obnoxious when drunk?
  I don’t think i’m that strong.

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