August 9, 2009
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[To Possess the Strength and the Will]
When I was in Miami, I didn't think once about here. ~S
Said my friend from work when he heard I missed them even after less than one day on vacation.
I don't know whether he knew some might take offence to it.
Maybe they understood that he meant that when on vacation, one should relax and enjoy oneself and not be burdened by the thoughts of work.
And its true, b/c sometimes when I think about it, it stresses me b/c work is stressful. But it brings alot of happiness and joy as well. I love our dresscode and always shiver at the thought of the future which may require me to be dressed up all the time. But it just means I have to buy really nice clothes.
Its the people who were strangers who become second family that I miss.
Are we just things that gets a job done and stepping stones to where you intend on going?
Is life really only about getting ahead of the game, making money and being 'successful'?
When you said that.. it actually hurt me a bit. I know you didn't mean it totally in that sense, but I know in other ways, it is exactly it. You bide you time here at work, till you're ready and then you'll leave to your expected job. Maybe you'll keep those ties you make here. Maybe some ties gets weakened, some are forgotten.
Its true. This is a stepping stone for me as well. But I intend to and already do keep those ties.
Some are strong.
Some are weak.
And some, ill admit, are near forgotten.
But I don't see it exactly the same way S.
I've blogged about it before.
Casa and I were discussing what were our greatest flaws/weaknesses.
It has always been the same with me:
Quick temper that usually ends up in silent treatment (when its dealing with people) or a burst of destructive anger (for poor inanimate objects).
Today was one of those times that I was tested.
But today, I instantly saw that opportunity to change.
To be better.
I kinda failed.
But I kinda succeeded.
I didn't destroy anything.
I screamed in anger.
But then continued on a slightly different task with great vigor and enthusiasm.
We can change (physically, emotionally & mentally) if we want to and if we put our mind to it.
One of the things I dislike most in life (and you may share it too), is lost opportunities.
I don't like how i'm easily reminded of that fact.
That I may not have a guts to attempt it.
That more opportunities keep popping up, but I still don't take it.
Sometimes it seems to risky, that failure is just too devastating.
Or that the action is exactly what a cruel person would do.
Karma exists.
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